rather anti-climactic i would have to say

so it is obviously past march 20, or D-day, as it certainly felt like, and that means i've finished my defense (thankfully finished positively). therefore, I am apparently now a PhD. it certainly doesn't feel like it. on the other hand it DOES feel freaking awesome to be done with it! (granted, i still have a bunch of crap i have to change in the text before submitting it to the university next week, but whatever). In celebration, I have set up the office at Elena's (where i previously worked on my thesis) as a sewing room, and I finally got the chance to use the wonderful yarn swift that my dad and tejas made for me over thanksgiving. (it basically holds yarn hanks and rotates slowly as you pull to make the yarn into a ball, instead of having to wrap the hank around your knees and inevitably end up with a big knotted mess). I may have jumped the gun a little with the room conversion, as i still have to do the thesis revisions and write another paper or two in the next month and a half, but i don't care. I plan to do a crap load of sewing in the next month and half as well.

why am i doing this again?

i'm finding it incredibly difficult to give a crap about my upcoming defense on thursday. i've only (half-heartedly) worked on my presentation once this past week, and i'm supposed to be going over it with andrew tomorrow morning. and i'm still not really interested in doing anything to it. why? why don't i care? am i really in the right career if i can't summon up a little bit of enthusiasm over the culmination of the degree i've busted my ass and wasted my life over for the last 5 yrs? i'm beginning to wonder. granted, i have my fair share of non-trivial distractions, like my dad's in the hospital again (they are going to take out his gall bladder on monday, and that will hopefully fix the problem), tejas' dad is here this weekend, and a few other life altering decisions are up in the air as well. but still. this needs to be taking precedent, and i just don't seem to give a damn. bah.

finished (sort of)

so i had high hopes of being able to do absolutely nothing tomorrow. i wasn't even sure i wanted to get out of bed all day. sadly, i still need to write a future works chapter and my acknowledgements :( but i guess the worst is over. now i can start bathing again. and changing my clothes every day. and doing laundry. woohoo. oh, and i really need to start going to the gym again. but tonight there will be lots of glorious sleep. sleep that doesn't come along with dreams of writing or data analysis or any of that crap. but hopefully there will be some food and a beer first.